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::: Life and Meaning :::

I can not say this with conviction

only a detached speculation; something

like a meteor shower raining over the

planet while I’m on the top of a mountain

watching the stars fall at me and

extinguishing and I can never see these

long enough, but for a small glance;

there’s enough of them that

the sky is temporarily lit.

I want to say that there is possibly

meaning contained within the chemicals

that are produced in my brain when I

feel emotion and that meaning is something

like feeling “human” or the cognitive dissonance

that I feel is a feeling of being uniquely myself

among seven billion other unique individuals.

”We are all nonentities”

it’s like I am trying to convince myself of meaning.

but in “real life" in situations where

I am not deliberately thinking every thought to its

end I forget meaninglessness and feel emotion.

What is the state that occurs between emotions?

do emotions really add meaning to an organism

that can’t change the way the earth

orbits the sun, or the way the universe is gently

expanding. and the ability to produce change

in something outside yourself is this concrete

meaning? There is no fact outside of an individual’s

perception and an object only exists or does not

exist within a person’s perception, and is open to

the next individual’s perception, and these perceptions

are the only thing that holds real or concrete fact,

but they are only “real” and “concrete” within the

individual’s reality, and even these facts are malleable

or subject to change, so what is real, and what is meaning?

there is a way to think in the opposite,

looking at existence as a problem and a solution,

instead of considering that the sun will explode.

It is possible to switch focus from a universal to

a contextual mindset… the context you are in, the

context of a society.

A focus more concerned with your immediate surroundings.

this can create a situation where “good” and “meaning”

derive from values existing inside this context,

and if you convince yourself enough, you can

attain “meaning” in this system.

Written by: ~ Brandon Scott Gorrell